Thursday, 18 July 2013

Dreams , Wishes , Destiny and then comes BullShit !!

    One question everybody must have come across at least once in their life time is "Where do you see yourself in 5 yrs ??"

  Rings a bell ??

      Wonder why it is quantized  to 5 yrs .. May be people think life changes every 5 yrs or may be one does live a full life in 5 years .. I would want to believe the latter !
 Yes , Live your life one full circle everyday , every week , every year and definitely every 5 yrs.
Until your 15 , you are not given a chance to do what you want to . Once you are 15  sneak in and out to live your life and when you are 20 .. probably you'll wonder how 15 to 20 was and what you would want yourself to be when you are 25 ! that's one confusing age !

      When I turned 20 ,I thought at 25 all I wanted was to be married , have a good job , a settlement and probably heading towards being a parent. 5 yrs seemed a long time to do all that .. I never raised the bar of my imagination of being 30 and see what I could ! Some how the world seemed to stop after I was 25 !

When I was 20 I had some dreams , few wishes and a destination .

  My dreams were to be an Engineer, definitely  worth being called one ! (obvious, as I was already doing my engineering ) .. I knew I was capable .. I knew I could do something . But what I could do was the unknown . My quest to know what I am capable of was just void even till date though.
My other dream was to have my parallel career in Dance. It was already 2 yrs since I had started my dance school and all I wished was to sustain !

My wishes
  •  get a job worth my time 
  •  have the guts and thought not to give in to the corporate lure 
  •  get into something I knew I would enjoy.. Teaching !! 
     I wished I'd find the perfect guy with whom I would have the perfect wedding and be a home maker making it just the perfect place to live .

     Seems simple ?? Do-able ?? not even worth to be in the wishlist ?? Well.. Yeah I told you , I never set the bar high

     And then I had to have a destiny , my destiny was to be able to have a peaceful sleep with no more dreams to dream about and no more wishes to be fulfilled. Simple a'int it ?

Reality   ---- > BullShit !!

     Yes , That's what it is simply .. Today at 25 neither Am I married or Have a job and not even outta college yet and looking for the best corporate machine to work for . Settlement is still too far to even think off  !!!!!

          But the good part is , I am doing my post graduation(I never really thought I could) , have the love of my life(not just perfect) , have two branches of the same dance school I just wished would sustain(making up for my otherwise dull career) . And so many breath taking experiences . So what I am not what I wanted to be at 25 . I guess I got more than I planned for and that's what makes life more exciting .
     
       Dreams , wishes and Destiny is all what you set for yourself but  that's just bullshit because life has more to offer to you than what you ask for or not !!