Half as much

A lot of people ask me questions very difficult to answer . Most of my answers are smiles. Sometime later I get a very smart answer in my head but the moment would have passed and I keep recreating the moment in my head and reply back with my smart answer. 

One such question is " where do you get your confidence from? "  I am unsure of the intention behind the question . But I safely just smile. 

But where did my confidence come from? 

After 25yrs of my own conscious life . I can say its my Mother.  

A woman who was merely 18yrs old ,married a man much older than her. Moved to a city from a small town without much preparation or information.  Had two kids and managed a life pretty much like any 1980's Indian wife would have. But What makes her different? 

At 18 , A fun loving woman (girl) was married off to a man with so many responsibilities that it inadvertently made it  obvious  she steps up to help sail this ship of marriage. She did , vehemently . With ease , with belongingness , with love and with true ownership. Just like any other woman back in her days . 

Its the fact she managed to live HER life too which makes her stand out in her herd. 

She made friends in the new city . She managed to learn to live a life the city demanded without much difficulty. Her friendships have lasted the time tide. Movies, shopping, temples and picnics with her friends were all part of her schedules . She also managed to be a hands-on mother. We (brother and I) never for a minute, missed having her around. Now we cant think of making a cup of coffee by ourselves when she is not around. 

Along with all this , she managed to have a career. Much a deal back in those days. She started something with just an idea she and her friend came up with . It was one-off idea at the right time , right place and rightly ventured. It clicked . Clicking its way to be in its 25th year. It being a baby creche and me being a baby then ,made me the first one to be enrolled. 

Yes , my confidence comes from this amazing woman who is an example of perfection to me. Loving wife , fatastic mother and a person larger than her life asked for. 

To top it all, she lived up to her life. She managed to make memories for herself. A circle of her own. A society where she is looked up to. From being an expert advisor at cooking , housekeeping to married life management . She is a one stop solution to all her friends. Being her daughter I enjoy the comparison I draw from her. When people say I look like her . I feel so proud inside. Also think will I be half as much pretty as she is when I get as old as she is?

I saw how she managed to bring my brother and me up. With limited resources she made us feel so comforted . With a decent job and a lot of support I have around , will I be half as good a mother she is? 

I grew up seeing her manage finances like she was an economics SME . With an engineering master degree and corporate experience. I wish I can manage my finances half as well as she did for all of us (dad,brother,me and herself) . 

I grew up with awe , looking at her crisis management skills. Strike crisis,  be it health , finance , education faults of my brother and me or anything . The composure she had during all these situations is commendable. I wish I get half her compusure and I will think I have attained nirvana . 

She is my example of a person who can get over anything over a sleep. A person who does not sulk. Somebody who  cannot have a bad mood for more than 5 minutes. Somebody who is so honest in your face, you will hate her because her eyes is telling the truth about who you are. 

A person who is so young at heart which makes you feel so old for your age. Take her to a beach, While you are worried about your pants getting wet. Turn around and you will find her playing with water like a school girl and you feel so intimidated . 

She is my best friend. My confidante. When you can confide to your mother without any fear. Its a win of a mother - daughter story. She made it so easy for me to talk to her about anything under the sun. Be it friends, stress over studies , guy related issues I could just go up to her and tell her everything . Somebody said , talking to your mother is equal to a hug with lasted 5 mins. And I enjoy the comfort of her hug like a new born baby. 

 

The best advice I have ever got from her is a bitter truth. " the world is not going to end" 

I say "mom , I am finding it difficult" 

And she said " Give it a try . No matter what the result is , the world is not going to end"  . Its been my mantra ever since. 

The daughter in me , the friend in me , the sister in me, the career oriented woman in me , the fun loving chirpy girl in me  , the wife in me wish we are half as much a woman as she is . 

 

Dreams , Wishes , Destiny and then comes BullShit !!

    One question everybody must have come across at least once in their life time is "Where do you see yourself in 5 yrs ??"

  Rings a bell ??

      Wonder why it is quantized  to 5 yrs .. May be people think life changes every 5 yrs or may be one does live a full life in 5 years .. I would want to believe the latter !
 Yes , Live your life one full circle everyday , every week , every year and definitely every 5 yrs.
Until your 15 , you are not given a chance to do what you want to . Once you are 15  sneak in and out to live your life and when you are 20 .. probably you'll wonder how 15 to 20 was and what you would want yourself to be when you are 25 ! that's one confusing age !

      When I turned 20 ,I thought at 25 all I wanted was to be married , have a good job , a settlement and probably heading towards being a parent. 5 yrs seemed a long time to do all that .. I never raised the bar of my imagination of being 30 and see what I could ! Some how the world seemed to stop after I was 25 !

When I was 20 I had some dreams , few wishes and a destination .

  My dreams were to be an Engineer, definitely  worth being called one ! (obvious, as I was already doing my engineering ) .. I knew I was capable .. I knew I could do something . But what I could do was the unknown . My quest to know what I am capable of was just void even till date though.
My other dream was to have my parallel career in Dance. It was already 2 yrs since I had started my dance school and all I wished was to sustain !

My wishes

•  get a job worth my time 
•  have the guts and thought not to give in to the corporate lure 
•  get into something I knew I would enjoy.. Teaching !! 

     I wished I'd find the perfect guy with whom I would have the perfect wedding and be a home maker making it just the perfect place to live .

     Seems simple ?? Do-able ?? not even worth to be in the wishlist ?? Well.. Yeah I told you , I never set the bar high

     And then I had to have a destiny , my destiny was to be able to have a peaceful sleep with no more dreams to dream about and no more wishes to be fulfilled. Simple a'int it ?

Reality   ---- > BullShit !!

     Yes , That's what it is simply .. Today at 25 neither Am I married or Have a job and not even outta college yet and looking for the best corporate machine to work for . Settlement is still too far to even think off  !!!!!

          But the good part is , I am doing my post graduation(I never really thought I could) , have the love of my life(not just perfect) , have two branches of the same dance school I just wished would sustain(making up for my otherwise dull career) . And so many breath taking experiences . So what I am not what I wanted to be at 25 . I guess I got more than I planned for and that's what makes life more exciting .
     
       Dreams , wishes and Destiny is all what you set for yourself but  that's just bullshit because life has more to offer to you than what you ask for or not !!

5 Steps to start endorsing your business online for free !

      The emergence of Online facilities at your finger tips is very overwhelming . Internet is now not only about sending emails , pictures and talking to your dear once across the seas like you had a face to face conversation over a cup of coffee(skype). Its something more than just a medium of communication . It is now a medium of expression, exposure and convenience .

  I have personally experienced how the right use of website services can be made to successfully endorse your ideas without having to spend a penny more nor having exuberant publicity strategies. All you require is clarity of the target audience. If you know where you can find the audience online, there, you can arrive with your purpose !
  The big examples of simple ideas making it to the big league of businesses is Facebook , it need not be introduced anyways . But the most impressive ideas to me was Redbus  and bookMyShow. All they needed was an Idea ,some technical knowledge and clear logic. They now stand as one of the biggest examples of small ideas getting big on a greater platform .

 If you are reading this article ,its mostly cos you  have an idea and want to know where to start from . Well , if my ground work could help you provide a start .Then here it is .. !

Step 1 : Website ! if you cannot afford one ... try a blog .. !
    Every business opportunity needs to have a document of what they offer. Brochures, visiting cards have now been replaced with websites providing every detail about the company/business/service to the customer.  If you are not sure of spending so much on building a website as yet , start with a blog about your idea.

• Its free !
• Sophisticated feedback about the audience of your blog !
• Great Tools and templates to create  interesting blogs .
• Images , link facilities , audio video Embedding makes it convenient to deliver your message.
• Your blog actually could become like a synopsis for your future website !
• If your viewership has dramatic numbers  , you'll be earning money out of other websites advertising in your blog and earn money every click through your website !

             so start --> BLOGGER !

Step 2 : Labels or Tags
   Think about your business as a customer looking for a service like you provide and assume the words he/she could possibly use to search on Google . Search Words play a very key role in endorsing your business. After you are ready with your business portfolio , keep searching for your business with your labels and figure out how many relevant words would search your business faster and enhance the search accordingly

Step 3 : Just Dial and Find out !
  Again thinking as a customer ,  where would you search for your service first ?? Google  ?? if not in google , classifieds of some news paper or just pick up the phone and call JustDial and ask them to provide you with the possible options??
  It happens that if your business idea is unique enough , there is hardly any competition. All you have to do is provide the right category , right options(just like labels) and make it look simple . Even though paying such service providers would list your business on the top of search results , if there isn't much competitors in your field ,just a casual listing would do . Go ahead and list your business here first--> JustDial

Step 4 : Classifieds-Online 
   Given the customer fast access internet and some leisure time, he/she would browse more than the 2nd page of Google search result . So enroll your business in all those websites you wouldn't have known in the first place until you saw this blog ! Here are the links of classified like websites where you could post your business/service.
 1. Quikr
2. OLX
3. askLaila
4. Yalwa
5. ClickIndia
6.Sulekha 
7. Click

Step 5 : Ultimately-->Facebook
  May be the lamest but it does really work ! A Facebook Page.. ! Create a Facebook page and make it informative and then make your closest friends like it irrelevant of their interest. The popularity of Facebook pages you might have already known , as in person , you would have liked at least 1 Candid photographers page or an online shopping website's page or DEFINITELY the Freshers Jobs /Jobs Fair page  :-p One of the best examples of Facebook page working well is Siri and Hari Menon Photography

You know how you found what you wanted , its about you helping others easily find what you are providing !

So Go ahead and find success yourself !

Technically , My first WorkPlace !! NetApp !!

     As an Intern , My experience at NetApp  started with the recruitment process. As this is my (and for most other interns) first job ,it would mean a lot more than just a job . The college-student-fears would give us a lot of doubts and expectations. Fortunately , here at the very first day during recruitment, it was all gone and answered by the environment itself . The first few hours I walked around the place with people walking around seeming happy to work here. That’s all I needed to get me started to transform from a  student to an employee.

  On the first day as an Intern , the orientation as we can call it , was very well organized and had the HR team helping us through the on-boarding  process with so much patience and a warm smile .

  As Interns , we were assured we were going to  have a really good learning experience and to compliment it , it would also going to be super fun .

    Not for one day I felt NetApp let me down with my expectations .

NetApp is concerned for our everyday needs and it provides us facilities at standards which would spoils us for choice.   

I would specially like to mention about NetApp university . It definitely stands true to its name. I took up 3 courses .

1.       Campus-to-Corporate :  One experience which makes my transition from student-to-employee more easier and disciplined.

2.       Perl Programming 1 : An online tutorial , well planned and truly informative .

3.       Perl Programming 2 : It was a 3 day class. The hands-on experience made learning faster and more fun

What really matters to have a good time is what u deal with every day. And every day I work with a team so motivated which is definitely infectious . My team has been so supportive . They don’t make us feel amateur at all. They include us in every discussion and make us look involved . They do not hesitate for a minute to clear our silliest of doubts . How the day passes by , we hardly notice . It is definitely so involving .

Talking about the fun we have , our HR team organized an Intern outing at Bluemoon Retreat Resort recently. The Day was well spent , NetApp style !!  Our day of fun started as soon as we all boarded the bus. It was a day with no flaw but super fun. The games we played, the adventure sports and more importantly we got to see each other outside office and I feel I know a lot of my co-interns much better than I earlier did. The outing definitely served the purpose . It was a riot of fun for me !!

And Beer Bash , If I don’t mention this, My testimony would be incomplete. As the name suggests, Bash it is definitely . Why would anybody (note: even for non-alcoholics) spend Friday evenings at office if it wasn’t fun??

I could go on and on about my everyday life here and it would still have lots of things unsaid. I would say , I couldn’t have started my career in a better fashion . I would always be grateful . NetApp truly stands dear to all us interns and we would cherish it .  

Rules For Politicians !!

Since the time , I have understood the word "Politics" , it hardly meant anything positive. Sometimes Its funny how politics is a common topic for eveyone in the world to discuss. You can have any two people in the world in a conversation , say about Obama , and they'd end up with opinions. Politics makes and breaks the world . But I am not writing this to enforce my opinion about poilitics, but just a collection of 10 things what I 've learnt about politics and politicians in India. Humor intended .. :-p

1.   Do not wear jeans,leather or anything else other than khadi but drive around in a BMW.. !
2.  .Attend all the functions as Chief Guest in your Constituency & say "We should encourage talent" and forget it ther!
3.  Encourage Woman power by assigning some of your property in your wife's name in-turn evade tax !!
4. Get Daughter Married to a rich guy's son & Son to a Richer father's Daughter.!! Wedding shud have 700 gaurds !!
5.  Your main priority is to prove opposition wrong.. even if they are doing good to the country !!
6. When a terrorist attack happens. "Condemn The Act " and forget it there !!
7.  if you are the opposition .. write a thesis of how incapable the Prime Minister is to rule the country !!
8. 5 yrs tenure in parliament , Time to see the world in 5 yrs with family ..MakeYourTrip round the world !!
9. Give the poor rice for 1 rupee.. He'll not think of earning the 2nd ruppee..
10.  Get efficient sleep !! in public functions and Parliament sessions !!

10 Things u need to know about a Girls Hostel ( M.I.T Manipal in particular) !!!

  When I first decided to take up my  higher education there was, obviously, a lot of curiosity , excitement and nervousness surrounding it. My parents thought it was just another plan I come up with everyday as to what I am going to do with my life . I was pretty sure about getting into the college and making it to be a Post-Grad no matter what. Why my parents thought otherwise was because , I had to stay away from home in a "HOSTEL" , which was an unimaginable place my folks could imagine me having a life at. Its obvious, cos being a home bird that I am, its difficult at the PG level to have an independent life. But If not now then when ? oh!!! all that I-want-to-have-an-independent-life shit had a big say at home :-p

 Hostel was pretty much the place I was gonna live. Staying outside in an apartment with a bunch of people who I would not know in person, at first wasn't like a pretty scene for me. With so much anticipation and excitement combined with fears and  inhibitions ,I stepped into my hostel life .Cheers !!

 Living here for the last 8 months was just enough for me to understand what makes living in a girls hostel more comfortable. I  thought I could share a few of them here , to give u an insight about a better hostel experience.

1. Teddy Bears.. What did you think ?????? its a girls hostel ..!!
     I know , the first point I  put across is as lame as u just read it. But trust me .. its important. You are a teddy-bear person or not, have one in your room even if you don't have space for yourself, make some for the teddy bear. It becomes a good ice breaker with your fellow hostel mates. Makes you look sensitive. And if your stuffed toy is really cute..trust me.. some of your hostel-mates (teddy lovers) will be more than cordial to you.And I am a teddy-bear lover :-)

2. Fancy Hostel Cloths... why not ?? its a chance to make a statement..!!!!
    Until you become a hostelite.. all you  were bothered  about was what you would wear to college, a date, an outing or a night club.. now its time to add HOSTEL to your list . Keep the "COMFORTABLE CLOTHING" at the top of the  agenda .You could make a statement if you wore something fancy , yet comfortable and greatly affordable.. And this is your chance to wear cloths which you are not allowed back home. Noodle straps, shorts, knee length night suit, just anything you fantasised to wear ..Bring them on !!!!

3. Dark shaded  Bed spreads and Hostel Chappals. !!!
  Why are these two combined under one point ?? well they both intend towards the cleanliness you gotta handle and maintain in Hostel. If you like baby pink , turquoise, peach, lemon yellow , white etc etc , leave em behind until you are in hostel at least for your bed spreads(if the hostel does not provide one ) .
light colored bed spreads attract a lot of stains in terms of "foot prints" , if not your clean feet , you could have a fellow hostel mate, who hangs out at your room on your bed having a mildly dusty feet , and when they go back to their room they would leave a mark behind on your bed spread. If u had just changed your sheets and no way u can wash them again, its better go for a darker shade for your bed spread . And ,for "you" not to be the 'dusty-feet-babe', use hostel chappals.. so now you know why hostel chappals and dark bed spreads go hand in hand :-p

4. Kettle/induction cooker 
   I can bet you will be bored with your mess food in less than 15 days. And tired looking for alternative and restaurants  the next 15 days and maggi would be the best thing invented for the rest of your hostel life. Now the retail food industry has so much to offer with respect to instant food ,you could just exploit all of em with just one Water kettle(another super invension!!!!) .. Mid-night hunger would be a thing of the past :-p

5. Internet.. Hard disk full of movies, television series
    Not always your best hostel-mate gonna hang-out with you, And if u don have an interesting bunch of them in the first place.. and if u have days of no work and purpose.. Internet and Television series will give you both work and purpose and WISDOM if not anything :-p

6. Head-phones
 You need them on for two reasons..
       1. to not disturb others while enjoying your movie, song or even while talking on skype
       2. to cut the noise from the outside and be lost in your own world ... which is pretty much gonna be the case.


7. Bucket Trolley/Spike buster
   If you are the delicate darling at home where u took a shower for hours under hot water and never tried to lift a bucket of hot water ?? "Please get the bucket trolley".
 Yes, there are hostels where you have one water heater per floor and you need to get in queue to get a bucket of hot water and  if you have the strength of taking just half a bucket of water.." Get a bucket trolley'

Charge your phone(sometimes 2 of em), your laptop, water kettle , mosquito  repellent and all in one plug point next to your bed..?? Now that's when you need a Spike buster :-) right next to your bed is the best place to have it :-p


8. The grocery.

   -Coffee/Dairy whitener/ sugar. If you are a coffee person

  - Maggi/oats/MTR ready to eat For those times where Mess and restaurant seem to be a very far away place, hard to commute and you just had a hard day (accept it!! there would be more I-am-too-lazy-to-walk-till-the-mess days than hard days!!)

  - Oregano seasoning - Save some from your dominos outing. They are just great with anything and everything , including maggi...slurrpp :-p 

   -Tang - a drink any time of the day and DEFINITELY NOT RASNA !!!

   - Munchies Like lays, haldirams sev, cashewnuts,kurkure,good day etc etc keep them at disposal for any time snacks . You would go crazy if you develop crave for them and they aren't around . And more important remember to hide some .. all chances u would end up with nothing if they are all put on display in your room

9. Alternate Roomie 
  If you have a roomie who is most likely to shuttle between hometown and college very often, and if you are the girl who is scared of darkness /loneliness/creepy sounds/ insomniac , have an alternate roomie. A hostel campus is prone to unlikely incidents like Suicides ,accidents and others which could lead to a scary scenario. If your roomie isn't strong enough to support you or if she isn't around, have a hostel mate who could come over to your room to be with you or you could go to her room to be with.

10. Yes Its a girls hostel, Even then, keep your girl stuff as less visible as you can
     Most of the times when I take a stroll around the hostel, the unpleasant sight of girl essential breaks my day. Its not a pleasing sight to see somebody Else's dirty linen drying out for days out in the open. Please Keep it to yourself. If its inevitable to display, please make sure its at least clean enough so that others are not uncomfortable


All the above points somehow summarises the situations you are one day or the other going to face in a hostel. But to wait to experience all these you most importantly gotta have "PATIENCE , TOLERANCE and MATURITY" . These three things are the most likely things your hostel mates might not have but  its for you to have, to have a pleasant , memorable and peaceful Hostel Life !! Cheers !!

lessons learnt from the sleeper coaches !!!!

Well, I always loved journeys.. Especially the long night drives to a distant place . My sleep was the most pleasant ones when I was in a bus en route tirupathi. That's where we would go often in terms of long drives. But as we moved towards having own vehicles, going anywhere would be at our own will and wish in our own vehicles. I personally don't like the idea because the stress and tension of somebody very close to you on the driving seat isn't really helpful to enjoy a drive over the ghats. But the fun and bonding which happens within the car definitely doesn't happen in bus train or anything else for that matter. Pit stops, stopping by every hour for coffee , pulling over to enjoy a scenic view , not having to carry your luggage in and out. so going on drive by yourself is absolute fun minus the risk ( punctured tyres are included too ).

So my love for journeys and bus travels seemed to be getting some returns . I shifted to Manipal to do my MS and then it being a place 400+ kms from home town (Bangalore) was all that was needed for me to frequent a bus travel. I was all excited. Like a big gal I would travel all alone back and forth every long weekends. Could it get any better ?
   My first return back to home town happened just 10 days after I shifted. I booked the ticket way earlier than people generally do. All excited I kept the ticket on my desk so that the very sight of the ticket would bring a smile on my face. I was actually excited about the destination nonetheless  but travelling alone for the first time was not less exciting either.
   So finally the night I boarded the bus, I was all excited informed everyone I had to that I've boarded the bus. And I trek up my sleeper platform. All excited. My first time (almost) in a sleeper . I sit down look outside the window and see how Manipal looks from a bus. Two mins into the journey. I have this strange feeling. The feeling is nothing but Nausea.. Oh COME ON !!!! I DON'T HAVE TRAVEL SICKNESS . Are u serious ? I don't want to feel sick at any given cost and ruin my stay in Bangalore. I had to do something.The only thing I could think of was to close my eyes like I just saw dirty vampire and not to open my eyes until I here the conductor calling out "BENGULURUUUUUUUUUU !!!!!!!!!! " . I safeguarded all my luggage. Most importantly my laptop bag which I kept so close to me like it were to be my baby :P
       And then I here sounds of something trickling .. !!!! of course trickling is water.. but where ?? somewhere close to my seat ??? Are u like Serious ??? Oh come on.. this need not have to happen.. And yeah .. Considering it was pouring cats and dogs in Manipal and the western ghats as a whole.. I know I shouldn't be surprised. SO it meant that My sleeper platform was going to be damp  all night ??? oh Puhleez.. !!! and it also meant (considering the nausea feeling) that I had to do something so I called the cleaner and he comes for the rescue and brings up a huge sheet of cloth (seemed pretty clean) and puts it over the platform and says"madam , now u can go ahead and sleep " .. I ask him ..hello !!!  don u understand that in no time the cloth would be wet too?? So he says.. "madam, the whole bus is full I cant give u another seat either..ille adjust maadkoli"  what shit.. !!! I give up and sit in one corner of the platform the whole night.. Putting this across to my parents would mean that I would not be able to travel back home too often.
  Now that's about the whole first time travel in a bus alone . And that obviously meant a cramped body for the next whole day :(|
  On the way back from my beautiful holiday at home, I boarded another sleeper coach . Looks like I boarded it a little too early as the bus took me for a city tour in my own city. !!!! even then I still had to keep with it.. So the actual lesson what a sleeper coach thought me was this.. I closed the curtains on both the sides (the window and the aisle side)  and laid down with my eyes wide open. I looked around in the 6x2 half feet space it was all dark and it just struck to me that, It was how it is to be inside a "coffin" .. Seems funny ?? Some  might even shrug away my perception and say I'm crazy. but that's how it is inside a coffin right ??
   Okay now that I gotta chance to see how life inside a nice cushioned coffin would be, I realised a lotta things. Like the coffin, the sleeper coach too has very limited space. You'd be cramped inside.
=>It is dark. Light would mean U should get outta the place to see the light.
=> U 've nobody to share the space with .. (its  bloody 6x2 space man !!!!!!!)
=> You've no network connectivity hence you are totally disconnected from the outside world( now that's when u go inside a coffin right ? )
=>U don't have emotions ( emotions for or about what ?? )
=> Nobody cares whether U're hungry or not ..
=>Nobody would say a hello to u..!!!! they are in their own world(coffins) !!!
=> U would not feel like stepping out... People would call anything which comes outta coffin a ghost.. and that applies to u in a bus too :P
 YOU JUST CANNOT DO ANYTHING LYING DOWN INSIDE THE SLEEPER COACH => COFFIN. What ever u do.. Do it before u go there.!!! JUST DO EVERYTHING BEFORE U GET IN THERE !!!!!!
    Live your life to the fullest, meet people, make frens fight with them ,dance ur way out, sing ur own crappy song, make ur own tasteless dish for once and hate urself for that. Dress up gorgeous, dress down at times too,  live ur dream, sleep like a pig, but wake up all energetic, set goals, even if u don achieve them somebody else might still achieve it for u  :P Set an example.. good or bad.. laugh at others.. all important.. laugh at yourself..( no never do it.. u are gr8 to urslef at least ) . Enact in front of the mirror... Party hard.. even if its in ur own room.. Cry out.. and call it mood swings :P  fall ill and enjoy the attention from the loved one.. Show them the same care when they are ill. Watch the crappiest movie and take the best movie as ur inspiration(and forget about it the very next day) . Regret,repent,rebel,remember,forget,love,like,hate,feel,hurt,get hurt, fall,climb up,walk ,read,write,talk,listen,eat,drink,watch do everything a living is blessed to do because EVEN GOD IS NOT BLESSED ENOUGH TO LIVE A LIFE LIKE YOU DO !!!. He is just MONOTONOUS writing our destiny. The fun of living through our destiny is for us blessed souls. Love your life.. Its only Until u are restricted to a 6x2 space .  That's not the place you would want to repent not to have lived a life. Go ahead and DIVE INTO LIFE :) (SHIT WHAT DURGAMBA TRAVELS DID TO ME MAN !!!!)